Thursday, February 9, 2012

STORY WRITING COMPETITION - 3rd runner up but still proud of myself for giving my all to accomplish it.

The dream begins with a teacher who believes in you, who tugs and pushes and leads you to the next plateau, sometimes poking you with a sharp stick called "truth." 
 ~Dan Rather
It is the most perfect saying I should say to my teachers. They are all of the greatest teachers whom can across in my life. They are not only the selfless giver but also the mentor of my life. At every step of my life, I come cross teachers who devote their entire life in the enlightenment of a student like me. For sure, teachers’ definition can’t be limited to a subject teacher because anyone who guides you in your life is a teacher. Many a times in life, I feel like thanking my teachers but I do not find a proper occasion. So this teachers’ day commemorate my teachers’ efforts and thank them for being the guiding light in my life.

“Teachers don't care, and they're boring me”. I don’t care what ever they say about teachers. It’s me who care. Honestly, if I was waking up at 6.00 in the morning to get to school, and learning out of a book while the teacher sat at the front of the room acting like they did not want to be there, I was going to sleep. I got very good grades in school and I was very motivated, but if I was sitting in a room for and hour and a half in one spot, working out of a book and not being engaged, my 'give a crap' level went down very significantly. And yes, it was very boring. VERY boring. Motivation level had nothing to do with it. I thought teachers need higher pay, or maybe just a break. But both students and teachers had to be in school, and if I was making the best of it, I expect the same from them. And sometimes I did not even get half, which is discouraging. There are good teachers and there are ones who shouldn't be teaching.Some are there to get a pay check, and some are there to fight the system to the end to help educate their students.

I had a few teachers who made it fun. Let us got up, walked around got blood flowing and did group discussion, while still learning. I got far better test grades and overall grades in those classes then in the classes where I always learned from a book and was taught by a teacher who seemed like they did not care. Some of them praised my efforts and hard work. They praised me when I got things right they told me when I did not get things right. She 'stacked beside me' when I hit a hard moment and she won't desert me until I got it right. They were very experienced. Not defensive or guilty, just a little confused about why people continue to bash away at teachers and then complain when they stand up for themselves.

Look, teachers teach six to seven or sometimes eight classes a day, 5 days a week. Sometimes it is just NOT FUN. Sorry, that people aren't entertained. Of course entertainers make much more money. The job of a teacher is to educate, throw in inspire, discipline, and parenting; now they want us to entertain. How about kids take a little bit of responsibility for their education.

Well, I have to say this. I am a teacher now. And I surely know what should I do and shouldn’t I do. I never realize what differences I made to so many lives, and to shrug it off when children will approach me and tell me I am always their favourite teacher.  Some of them are at high school, and have told me of their fond memories they have of me and their time with me. I always take a quick glance back at the teachers I have had and always distinguishing the good from the bad from the ugly. The teachers that I remember are most often either the ones who were the best or the ones who were the worst. Luckily, I can learn from both. Yes, I as a teacher Will learn to take constructive criticism from someone who writes sentences with the word "I" lowercase.

You are the best Teacher in this world. Wherever I may go in my life, I will always remember that I had an excellent guide in the form of a teacher, you. You have been the mentor of my life. Though I did not realize it earlier. Now it feels great to have someone who guided me to the right track in life. Thank You Teacher for being a selfless giver but also the mentor. Without you, I would have been lost. Thank you teachers for guiding me, inspiring me a and making me “Teacher with Brain” what I am today.




Overrated


Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I Miss EveryOne Around Me..

Make a GOOD life for myself


A couple years ago I was so depressed....All the more I didn’t looked at myself clearly, I was sure that I’m not good enough, smart enough Sometimes it’s harder than it seems to be…
I was not sure.

One says that it’s naturally to love oneself, isn’t it?
Now i'm so confident about doing anything...

Now I feel like I've got enough jumps in me to go out there and be confident in what I'm doing right now so it shouldn't matter what others think. I hope it doesn't go away! never!!

Today I told myself to let go a bit more and allow myself the luxury of enjoying myself. For the first time in ages I felt loads happier and relaxed than I have ever been...

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Early Marriage SICKNESS



My husband and I are quite happy in our own way (within reason). He gives me freedom to do what ever I like to do in my life. I never cross the line. When we get home, he goes nut with his load of works on his laptop in the bedroom. I love it. It's all in good fun, and we trust each other. But...soon I become aware of differences in our personal values after we got married and that really makes me think that I really should have made a second thought before I married this man.

Then, to my deep regret ( I am??), is exactly what I have done, and continue to do. After meeting F, my former boyfriend (I think so), a few months ago everything is changed. I feel like I am betraying my husband and I don't want to. I’m not deliberately trying to destroy my marriage. My husband notices the difference, even if I never explain the entire process. Strangely, I'm not normally the kind of person who takes risks and still don't know why I fell for F so heavily - perhaps because I'd first met him when I was free and single and in my 20s.

I shouldn’t have this dark affair and I don’t think I need F as much I need my husband. I don’t even love him but I like the way he treats me. I do not know exactly my feeling towards him. We had a brief thing in the past but never were gf and bf. Sometimes I get confused about how he feels about me. He acts selfish and tries turning the argument on me when he done something wrong, making me feel guilty when I shouldn't. We could start arguments over anything. He always telling me I should act more like this and less like that. I think it some kind of emotionally abusive behaviour. I know he's not my bf, but he's acting as controlling as an abusive bf.

I am being unfaithful to my husband. Nothing about having an affair is rational. Stuff like that is useless and only can lead to no good.

I'm not a very hard person to please. It's just that I have been so damn depressed lately. I have no idea what the real reason for it is (of coz mayb bcoz im betraying my husband. plsssslah...whatelse!!!!) I have been so insecure in my marriage lately, it's ridiculous. Maybe I am just plain crazy. Whatever it is, it needs to be resolved ASAP. F and I had a slightly stupid argument recently that makes me feel this is the right time for me to keep myself apart from him. I feel like he is cheating on me even though he says he is not. I felt like even though we would have our minor arguments we still had a great relationship. I got all the attention from him that I wanted. In the same time it feels like he just got used to me and is taking me for granted. Sometimes I feel like I should do something and cheat on him but I know that's not the answer especially if I am not 100% sure about what he is doing. I really shouldn't feel this way but I just can't help it. I feel like I have no one to talk to about this because when I try to discuss my feelings with him it always turns into an argument. Maybe if I am able to get some of this off of my chest I will feel better.